THE STORY

I graduated in 2009 with a degree in chemical engineering and a fantastically low GPA that sunk my dream job. I didn't have a lot of options and ended up taking a technician job. This was a hard time because my identity as a smart person was crushed and I had a lot of student loans.

For a while I rejected reality by escaping into delusions of becoming a professional musician. My identity shifted. Although that dream did not work out either at the time, the experience taught me how to let go of older versions of myself. That ability continues to serve me now, as technology changes and what I learned in college has little to do with my current work.

Is it useful to hold onto an identity of chemical engineer when that was a 4 year degree 10 years ago?

Isn't it more important to find purpose and understand my own guiding principles, as opposed to looking for a match between the content of my education and of my profession?

How do I avoid the trap of becoming an "expert" and allowing it to define my identity? How do I stay consistent to my character to build trust, but allow enough change to stay with the times and current problems?

”And We Fall” is my story about learning how to let go of certainty and embrace the unknown. To forgive myself for not understanding so I can truly enjoy my progression through life. I screw up a lot. I’m trying to be less wrong over time.